Prayer of Forgiveness...and Grieving

From last week... during visualization and meditative exercises, I began to cry and realized how much I'd been holding in. It needed to be acknowledged. 

It's amazing that when grief and sadness show up, sometimes we have no idea what we are grieving. I know for me, by the time I recognize the feeling, the situation that triggered it may be long forgotten, and I have no idea what I'm processing... and because I then feel sad for having suppressed my feelings, I now grieve that -- that I held back and didn't allow myself to fully have the thought, the feeling, the emotion, to pass through me, and move on. So much energy is in that. What happens when water doesn't flow over the dam? Really, it's no wonder I become such an emotional mess sometimes. 

Sometimes we need to recognize parts of ourselves. Sometimes it has no other meaning than that. Why else do we cry out, but to be seen? And yet we hold it in. 

Maybe you can relate. 

(hint: for best healing effect, whisper or speak aloud from your heart)

Creator,

For all times I have suppressed anger, resentment, vengeance, bitterness... for all times of others not hearing or seeing my emotions expressed, when their bearing witness was most needed...

...for all times I have suppressed and repressed emotions that needed to be seen, heard, felt, recognized... please help me forgive myself, forgive all other people, and all others forgive me. Forgive me for depriving others of opportunity to learn, to observe vulnerability, to practice compassion and sympathy. Forgive me for fear of being hurt. Let us all love and forgive each other, opening the doorway to healing in our hearts. Please, and thank you.